no need, 4am is renewed...
i need to be as well.

i've really screwed up this time. psalm 51.
haha, a fresh start every couple weeks.
how true.

SAVE 4AM!! send money.

ok, i've decided i don't like the new 4amblue. sorry.
is our web hosting going to expire?

i have nothing to say. nothing at all.

what's going on you jerks!?

8 o'clock friday morning. here we go.

dude, whatever...
these past 3 days have been the warmest days we've had in months.

it's so cold here.

thus begins the war movie binge of january 2003.
watched when trumpets fade and saving private ryan.

next on the list:
full metal jacket, the thin red line, the longest day, glory, three kings, black hawk down, behind enemy lines, enemy at the gates, hunt for red october, pearl harbor, the great escape, kagemusha, the green berets, the dirty dozen, a bridge too far, all quiet on the western front, platoon, star wars (all of them), paths of glory and uhh....starship troopers. yeah. war movies.

see jon?
see what happens when you leave?
do you see what low we have reached?!

A WAR MOVIE BINGE!

WHY!?

so yeah, leaving to take jon to the airport in a few.
i can't believe it's been 3 1/2 weeks.

holy crap.

jon, man...it's been awesome.

Winter Breeeeeeeeeaaaaaak!

"They're coming for us! Hide by the trees!"

yeah, tonight was such a perfect, great night...
one of those nights where it's so awesome that it's over before its time and you're just left hanging, and then you have to go home, finish the night off yourself and try to live out the rest of it in your mind, just imagining what it would be like if you were still there, just imagining what it would be like if time didn't run out, rudely interrupt you and say that it's over.

oh well, there's another time for such things, a time when things can just go until you know they're done, and everybody just ends the night totally satisfied. but no, tonight i knew that we still had a good hour's worth of fun left. well, maybe not an hour...but still a decent amount of time.

photodoc when i awake from my slumber.

THERE CAN BE ONLY ONE!

time to go.. see u soon.

yeah, i knew you would.

uh oh, i did it again.

48 hours to a photo doc...or a mindoc...which is even cooler...
thanks, chuck

hey do you want to become a leader

hiding things isn't a good idea. one day, it'll blow up in your face.

happy birthday, eli.

i leave 24 hrs b4 i am suppose to.. why does this always happen to me.........

tonight, i find myself with the full knowledge that i am not doing exactly what i'm not supposed to be doing, and that i've used the denial into the DTS to slack off in my ways. i say in complete confidence that it is noone's fault but mine, and that fact will be a fact no matter what equation, filter, or process you run it through.

how on earth did i get so far away from everything...
from my calling,
from my convictions,
from who i'm striving to be?
i will not stand for this.

God, i beg you for a radical change in my heart. even though i know exactly what i have to do and exactly who i have to be, i seem to have managed to totally forget about that. remind us all, today, of what you want for us...remind us all today of our transgressions, so that we may repent. Lord, forgive me for my selfishness, forgive me for everything.

i ask you today, lord, to equip me with the army it will take to revolutionize a nation, and with the knowledge to lead it. praise be to your name, for you are so good to us that even at our lowest points, you still draw us back into the fold and love us.

thank you god.

i just had one of the greatest days i've had in a long, long time...
and the video is stinking phenomenal.

22 minutes ago (israeli time which is GMT+2 (which you probably don't know what that means))...19....wierd.

if jerry goes will u go?

i haven't agreed to anything yet, but i'll give you a definite maybe.

what's weird is, that i'm still here.

yeah, that's so weird, how you're going to be here wednesday...
okay, eli...we're going. you, me, jjay and ryan.
friday.

booya.

i'll go with you