this just in...redesign of 4amblue, coming 2003.
it looks so good.

what happened to my post...oh well.
rang the door bell at someones house at 3:45 am.
he took us in and gave us a bed...cool.

well, that was a fun day.
went to the city to take pictures with mike and jon...
here's the results.
(longest photodoc ever, by 10 pictures)

you can't ground me! i hate this family! nobody understands me!

you will do no such thing young man.
and did i see your light on last night?
NO MORE READING BOOKS IN BED!

oh, you heard me.
that's it...you're gorunded.

and maybe i should cut your dirty face while im at it.

maybe i should smack your mouth and bust your teeth out like chiclets all over the floor.

well..maybe you should...have...you know...
shut up.

this time...
it really, really matters to me.
more than ever.

maybe you should have wrote that in your journal.

i had a wonderful day with jacqui, and a wonderful evening with colleen...
but for some reason, tonight ends a little bit differently than the others this week.
with something missing, lacking, or maybe broken...for now. i'm not quite sure.

hmm, maybe that's just what it feels like. maybe not.
maybe i'm insane. who knows. but yeah, tonight ends on an odd note.
having sat here, reading tons of old journal entries...

maybe i'm just missing an old me.
maybe i'm just wishing i could change some things now.
maybe i'm just hoping that the future will turn out okay.

hmmph.
i'm done.
i love you, and i love you world.
can you hear me now?

ok, there is nothing to do. i come home, and there's nothing to do. danielle's leaving for norway tomorrow. i don't have a car to get anywhere. amy's leaving for israel. chuck's leaving all the time for nrrrrfffffrmmuhh. blah.

"my girl hates the IRA, it's true she's just a fantasy! don't know her, she don't know me. we'd make the perfect family. nothing in this world could be better than falling in love with her. she'd write me the most beautiful of songs. 1-2-3-go!"

well duh.

starbucks is a waste of money.....

boycott chuck!

so like, i was thinking...
jacqui's titles on her journal entries are always something like, "...4.13am and you forgot to breathe..." or something cool like that. i wonder if i'd ever do something like that. you know, make cool titles for a journal entry, i have no idea why i'm writing this.

well, maybe i do.
it's just late, and i had a great christmas.
check your pockets- i think i forgot my heart in the car, anybody take it?
haha, yeah, i'm so done.
good night, i hope you had a wonderful christmas, whoever you are.

oh my god, i just want to go to sleep.

i miss you.

oh it's Chrismas.
was that little girl drunk too?
jon, i know it was a joke. thats why as a joke i erased my post.
i thought that was funny too.

okay, quick story.
i was out doing a christmas thing or two, and saw a huge party going on at a house. i rang the bell, and told them that i was making a "scrapbook" for christmas this year, and wanted to know if they'd like to be a part of it. they were all a little drunk, and happily agreed. so here we go, totally random strangers:

fine then, i ruined christmas.
yeah, i could have sworn we did...

remember last year and the year before that and the year before that and the year before that and... wait, didn't we already do this joke?

iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii never ruined christmas.

ok, you didn't have to delete your post. it was just a little joke. i mean, chuck told me to do it. it's all his fault. he always ruins Christmas.

it's in the little, subtle lines like this...
to be honest.

you gotta look carefully.

who added me to the ILL mitch mailing list?

too much usage of the word "emo" goes against the charter. further usage shall result in consequence. yes, consequence. aslo, no posting within three hours of a photo doc. just check the charter.

i'll have you know, both me and mr. hartsaw took these pictures.
so much for an adventure.

"cuz something about you compels me to feel that a glued together vase is still a vase."

congrats on staying up all night

ooh, the moon's up.

there it is.
there's my 4amblue.
helloooooo...oooh...yeah, there you are. i see you!
i see you! hah.

oh my. sorry jon, for earlier. thanks for bein' a pal and waitin'.
but, nonetheless, i'm about ready to shoot myself in the face.
yeap, i can't take this anymore.

one more left.
i'll do it tomorrow, after i get up.
yeah, you got it, kids....I'M GOING TO SLEEP NOW.
whoo.

ok chuck, this isn't funny. i really want to go to sleep.